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RiunsellThis is the world, Of Jack after Sally, When she's been sown, And Jack's time is tallied, Now Jack's with a woman, Full statured with grace, After Sally had left, For a man with no taste, Jack had been broken, When Sally wanted to leave, And had a heart, That would never beleive, That Sally had left him, It could never perceive, So here stands Jack, With a woman at side, Who put him together, When his heart had just died, So Sally is missing, Just where did she go, Just don't ask Jack, He doesn't know.....Riunsell
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TohresThe world so deranged, With creatures quite strange, The moonlit night eternally, Is where live the souls most free, But violent in nature, The most of them are to be, From within the sands, There live clands but three, The Adjuchas, Menos, Arrancar, Each created with a different scar, It's hard to beleive how different we are, But one day we each live, And eventually die, Whether or not, There's darkness in out eyes, But that echoing world, Is where I shall go, The echoing world, Hueco Mundo......Tohres
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| Dreams.......... Fantasies of the individual's mind, pieces of mental literature. Poetic dressings of the mind, creating everything that you could ever want and everything that you could ever need. So sweet through all of everything can these dreams be, and so much for them do people strive, wishing for the truth behind the mind's eye. From the youngest of ages our dreams are everything to us, they are what drive us in our lives to aspire to new heights. For nearly all people dreams mean everything to them, and thus it holds true in myself. Yet without these pieces of our own fictionous design, we cannot live, for without dreams, there is nothign for anyone to aspire for. Without those of which we aspire for, there is no point in living, for life can only exist through creation, and creation stirs from our imagination. Many whom read this would fight against my words and tell that we can live without dreams, but not without the imagination, however everything that we imagine, is in essence everything that we dream. Meaning that everything we imagine, is a dream of sorts, and can only truly be seen this way for how else would you describe other than the word "goals"? The word "goals" means that we have an idea of what we want, and that we have an idea of how we want to live, however in that case, all that we have set as goals, are that which we first dream, or create deep within ourselves as our dreams to aspire. ~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~ Since I was a young little child, (yes I know it sounds odd for someone of my age to say), I've always had the same dreams, and these dreams of course have defined who I am, and who I will end my life being. Those dreams that I've had have been the same even to this day, and I can honestly tell them to you (you as in whomever is reading this, yet more so for a certain individual, for I wish for that one to know more openly of myself). In the simplest form my dreams have always been as such, those dreams I hold close are to be a father, to be married, to own a restaurant or bakery, and to see the people I care for succeed in what they dream (of course I realize that these are very common dreams as well, but it doesn't deffer from the point of them being what I dream). ~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~ I admit that when I was younger, children fascinated me, even when I was four years of age, children my own age and those still younger than I, amused me and gave me great pleasure. I vowed by the time that I was five and a half, that one day I would be a parent. Now at this age, I was still quite sheltered, and had no idea that men and women had different body parts below the waste, for when in a public setting, I obviously did not see that women did not have the same as I did, it was very rational to think that we were the same. I had always thought that someone who was a girl, was in fact just different in voice than a boy was. It was the only thing that I could notice was different between the two sexes. So being that as it was, I first dreamed of being a mother. Well as you could well imagine, I felt rather foolish and stupid when I found out that boys couldn't be mothers, and I then switched tactics, if you will, and promised that I would be a father one day, that I would be a good father, unlike my own. By the time I had entirely made this vow, I was nearly seven years of age, and had an exacted knowledge for someone who would have been thirteen. Since then I have always kept this dream close to me, in fact it is the closest dream that I have ever felt. I may not be the smartest for this next bit, but seeing as how I am explaining, honesty with this, is the best way, and I know that I am going to be horribly maimed for it, if not by selected individuals, at least one specific person will harm me. I will never forget the first time that this dream was brought so close to being reality, it was in 2006. My girlfriend at the time, whom I don't mention, and in fact have not mentioned to anyone, even when recapping upon my past relationships, had of course wanted to do certain acts which of course I wasn't going to argue. And so forth and so on, those events occurred several times, and from those events came what she viewed as the consequences of her actions. As of May 3rd that year, she had become pregnant, and had been along for a period of time. I had become overjoyed, but she had not, she was more angry and showed it clearly. She took everything into her own hands, and she left me, she did not tell anyone, and she drowned herself out, and harmed herself, so that she may rid herself of what she called a disaster............ With that, I drastically fell and could not do anything of my own mind, and I made a desicion that would prove not wise. I hid the pain behind my eyes, sheltered myself within the sounds of music and writing, playwrights and Samantha. She was a good friend of mine whom had liked me more than had been seen, and in my state of increasing depression, I silently nodded when she asked of me to be there with her. It was something that I have regretted since, for she should never have been put through the essence of my life, she saw more of my pain than I have ever let on, and it did her no good. Thus an era of pain ended with the beginnings of another. Last year was the second of times that my dream was brought so close to me, I had learned from she whom was my closest in years, that she was pregnant. Again, I fell into extreme joy, and for the time, so did she. When we found out we became much closer, as should be expected. Though more emotionally attached, the events behind the ending of this were far too simple, and are that of many other's paths as well. At the time that I found of the loss of my daughter, I was walking with a good friend of mine and I couldn't even tell her, because it was meant to stay secret until the time it was to be told. Even now at this point, it still is not supposed to be told, yet through others, it has been leaked out, so now I have not an issue with coming forth with this, however, names are not included for this reason. After a few months, again the possibility was there, but I poured too much of myself into the dream again.....and I payed for it dearly with the breaking of my heart. Through the words that she spoke to me, and the leaving to another place. I cannot truly remember the times anymore, and have not been able to for sometime............... ~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~ Marriage, yes marriage has always been a part of my dreams. Since the times when I had started to watch more television with my mother, and the times when I began to read, for my mother watched Soap Operas and read romance novels, yes I actually read romance novels when I was younger than I am now. But even in children's books, people always fell in love, lived through a tragedy or horrible ordeal and then got married and lived happily ever after. It was one of the first "faerie tales" that I "involved" myself in. Of course as life goes, I always bring this dream with me when I enter into a relationship, and of course with my first relationship I was extremely foolish, I listened to every word she said, took it all to heart, and payed for it. As it turned out, she cheated on me horribly, and I found out rather quickly, which was rather unfortunate for me. I asked her, and it went far gone, leaving me with a rather large amount of pain for the moment of the incision, and a scar beneathe the skin for the rest of my life. Alas I was not meant for the agony for all of my life, for in fact I was picked up that same night as I had been destroyed, to be reborn again, with new hope, and she was beautiful. We were together for three years, all moments together, we had nearly none apart. The longer things go though, the less of detail there is to be shared, only in the regard though that the end was far too painful for anyone to have to bear, even upon the worst of my enemies I would never wish them to endure what I did. In a simple way, I will only state in this regard though, I despise the police for what they did to me and how they disrespected her, and never shall they have my pity if anything happens to them. The next time that my dream of marriage was so pronounced, was two years later, the one for whom it was with, I pronounced to her in the most childish of ways.... "Tag, you're it!" and "Come and get me....." . I will never forget that look in her eyes when I asked her, and again I doubt that I shall ever see that look again, not anytime soon in my lifetime. She cried in joy when I asked her, and more so I laugh now for on Halloween I asked her, a day that has always been important to me, still now, that day means alot to me. Though, even after some time, she left me for another person, it still made me feel free. Another moment as such has not come to pass through unfortunately, I have felt that it would be wonderful to be wed to some people and even shared with them the fact of this, but it did not go well with some, and others it went too far, so I have stayed my hand for the moments to come in order to find the next moment to share my dream of being married. Maybe she will be the one....... ~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~ As for my dream of owning and running my own restaurant or bakery, I'm close to it. I have loved baking and cooking since I was a wee little one, my mother bought me an Easy-Bake Over when I was 6 and I used it along with a large amount of chocolate to make her a chocolate dessert, though I didn't know at the time that baker's chocolate was not sweet, so it turned out rather, bitter. My mother wasn't happy with me, because of the mess I made with it, but I still loved it and had fun. Since then I learned how to bake, made a few bad ideas in there, such as Cinnamon Teriyaki Beef, was a bad idea, didn't come out bad, but I was the only one to eat it. Mac & Cheese made without any powdered cheese, and made with a bag of mexican blended cheese, it also turned out good, but was frowned upon, and i baked the mac & cheese without boiling the pasta first. After that though, I haven't made any mistakes as bad. I bake more frequently now, and cook the same as well, my best baked good is Red Velvet Cake, and my best dish that I've made to date with Herb & Spiced Chicken Strips with home made mashed potatos, and baby corn with a slice of oat nut bread(or two). I went to school at the Lower Cape Cod Regional Technical High School, in Harwich MA. While there I studied in the Culinary Arts, along side with two horrible instructors and three grand instructors. The two whom were not so grand were Mr. Paul Smith, the bakery instructor whom was a drunk (he constantly came into the school drunk and would smell profusely of it), and Ms. Caroline Freitas, the theory and waitstaff instructor (whom was extraordinarily cruel and a dictator ever since her fiance` left her and went to Hawaii alone). The grand instructors were Mr. Dominique Baschand, the head kitchen instructor, Mr. Ronald Mantley, the second kitchen instructor, and then we had Jean, whom was a wonderful elderly woman who helped to teach the importance of finishing tasks, by not completing them and forgetting all sorts of things. In that school, I learned alot, and moved on to learn directly from my own books from the Culinary Institute Of America. I have worked in a meat department, which was not in the best meat department, but I have the expirience now, as well as the stamina and strength to work with heavy pieces of food or meat. I have expierience in many different fields in the Culinary Arts. I plan to share my cooking and baking with anyone whom will have me to do so. ~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~ My final dream, of wishing to see the people I care about succeed in their dreams, I'm doing it. I help everyone else above myself, and I put my effort into making them happy, because they have dreams too! I thank the people I are for because without them, I wouldn't be able to fulfill any of my dreams.......... ~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~ Dreams................ Without them, I am nothing more than an empty vessel........ |
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