I am here, stuck on this forsaken man-made island, and I have nearly noone. Many of you might say, "But I'm here!" , but this is not true, you are here on Cape, but you are not here for me, most of you I barely see, between work, and schedules, most of you don't have the time to stop to say "hi" anymore. Even the one I call my best friend, has barely been here. So in this, I have been around a small number of people for the most part, even if it seems like I am around many more. I am stuck here, until all of this drama that my lying, cheating, and destructive family, has created, subsides, and is dealt with.

I am stuck away from my son, and away from my fiance. I am trapped in a house, filled with people who give me no respect, even when I am the one who has given them a home. I am constantly battered by waves of screaming, and yelling, over the most ridiculous of things. Being accused of stealing things, that I in the first place bought for other people, and then having my own belongings stolen from me.

To quell the damn rumors, lies, and misconceptions, I am not being the most bastardly man in the world. I am not sleeping with every girl I see. I am not doing drugs. I am not leaving my fiance, nor my son. I love Amber, I love Rae, and I love Jessie, there is nothing else to this. Just because it looks like I'm flirting, doesn't mean I am. When I intentionally flirt, people don't see it as flirting for some reason, no idea why they can't see it, but it doesn't work when I try. Just because you see me walking with a girl, doesn't mean that I'm trying to get into their pants. Just because we might not get along doesn't mean that I want to kill you, nor does it mean I will mame you horribly.

I want nothing more than to be able to enjoy myself from time to time, and to be able to be with the people I care about most. That is all there is for me, the people I care for.

My music, video games, and other items are currently to distract me from the drama, and ridiculous amounts of stupidity and angst around me, I do not need to be overly depressed, so these things help me when I don't have people around. Do Not Take Them From Me

To once again be fully clear, and to make sure that everyone understands me fully, I love Amber, I love Rae, and I love Jessie. There are no armies of girls that I am sleeping with, there are no drugs that I am taking. Taking pills, shooting up, and snorting are not things that I do, nor will I do them.


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BeeTeaDubs, working on a song pack now in spare time, BetaElectric, will probably be a while before it's done. Aiming to finish by October, hopefully.